I have always been proud to call myself a conformist.  As a child I loved school, as a youth I loved my parents, and as an adult, well–you know how I feel about church, planned communities, and Target.  I am  a lover of The Establishment, Americana to the core.  When I hear people brag about “dancing to the beat of a different drum,” I usually assume they just weren’t getting enough attention dancing to the drum provided.  (I’m kind of judgmental that way.  Sorry, different-drummer-dancers.)  I think Normal is fantastic and Fantastic, normal.  It’s a fine worldview that has served me well in virtually every aspect of my life, save one.  In one facet of my Pollyanna existence, I find that Normal is not only non-fantastic, it’s downright deceptive.  In this facet, I find that Normal is wrong.  And in this facet I find, to my deep shame and chagrin, that I must not conform.

I have not, I cannot, and I will not support the Twinkie.  I did not like it in life and I will not mourn it in death.  And no, I have not adopted this position based on the nutritional deficiency of Twinkies or the political debate about the Bakers Union negotiations.  I have always adopted a nonconforming, non-Twinkie position based on one single, inarguable fact:

Zingers are better.

In fact, I love Zingers.

Wait, did I forget to italicize?  Beause what I meant to say is: I love Zingers.  

Ever heard of ’em?  They are Twinkies with frosting, and about a hundred times tastier.  And as an added bonus, they’re even worse for you.   A climbing buddy of my husband’s conducted some research once and found that Zingers are the most calorie-dense junk food on the market. In light of that indisputable fact,  how could they not be delicious?  The fat content of Zingers qualifies them as both the perfect extreme-sports energy bar and an ideal snack for on-the-go, undernourished moms like me.  Some days, between driving to piano and then soccer and then Botox, we self-sacrificing mothers need a little pick-me-up.  I know some women think keeping a bag of baby carrots in you purse is the solution, but I say:  why waste all that time nibbling like a rabbit when you can swallow a Zinger in one gulp and save yourself the jaw fatigue?  (Not to mention the floss.) It’s energy efficiency at its best, the Zinger.  And, unlike the ho-hum Twinkie, it comes in vanilla, chocolate, and raspberry.  Oh, the raspberry.  Give me a couple of those darlings, a bag of Doritos and a carton of chocolate milk and suddenly it’s 1982 and I’m riding in the backseat of the Buick  on every family road trip of my childhood.  (The road trips were usually to Boise; the food was on theme.)

So, when Hostess announced that it was closing its doors this week and the entire country went into a Twinkie rapture, you can imagine how insufferable it was for a nonconforming Zingerlover like myself.  Everywhere I turn, I’ve had to listen to the Twinkie sheep weep and wail about the demise of their shepherd:  How will we raise our children in a land without Twinkies?  Who will recognize these United States of America without its national childhood treat on the shelves?  Boo-hoo, I thought.  Who cares?  Who needs dry spongy Twinkies when moist, frosted Zingers are still available?  I have to admit, I felt pretty smug as I read about Hostess going under, knowing that my infinitely superior Zinger would, at long last, reign rightfully supreme as Queen of the Preserved Packaged Pastry.   No longer would that fresh-faced raspberry beauty share shelf space with her yellowed, aging great-aunt.  At long last, a cultural underdog would be represented not in Congress but on the free market.  The people had spoken, and Zingers–so long ignored, so long downtrodden–had finally triumphed over her oppressors.  And as the self-appointed head of her army, I found myself suddenly, unexpectedly, victorious.  Geez, I thought.  This nonconformity gig’s not so bad.

And so, thus cloaked in my indignant but magnanimous demeanor, you can imagine the horror I felt upon discovering, deep within the bowels of this breaking news story, that it was not merely Hostess going out of business, but Hostess Brands.  What is Hostess Brands, you ask?  Well, Hostess Brands is the parent company that owns Dolly Madison.  And Dolly Madison is the company that produces Zingers.  And Hostess Brands is dying, which means Dolly Madison is dying, which means Zingers–my Zingers!–are dying too.  So much for my new status as a nonconformist; I was now as predictably distraught as all the mainstream Twinkie twerps.

But what could I do?  There was only one thing I could do, and I did it:

 I actually took a picture of my Zinger run, but my camera is goofy so I’m using this stock photo as an eerily accurate portrayal of what I’ve been up to this week.  (I mean, look:  the lady has my haircolor and this store looks like a Walmart.  Whoa.)

So, in the end, I had to eat one (or three) each of a vanilla, chocolate and raspberry Zinger, in a humble gesture of gratitude, goodwill, and goodbye.  I hadn’t had a tri-flavor Zingerfest in many years, and it did not disappoint.  As I sunk my teeth into the soft cakes, creamy frosting, and fluffy filling of my childhood I wept, along with the sea of Twinkie drones, for the Brave New World in which we now find ourselves.  I mean, isn’t the point of capitalism to keep the best products on the free market?  Perhaps it’s time we, as a people, reassess our economic structure and re-prioritize what we’ll do with it.  Forget healthcare; let’s nationalize Zingers.   

And maybe it’s time for me to admit that whole Nonconformist Thing just doesn’t really work for me. Even when I try to think outside the box, I always end up jumping  right back in.  Try as I might, I will forever find myself weeping with those that weep and mourning with those that mourn–especially over factory-produced pastries.  In this case, I tried to be a maverick and I ended up a minion, so I guess you could say that I got my just desserts.  Which is good, because it looks like I’ll never get them again.

Unless a black market in Canada opens up.

(Any word on that?)